For the longest time, I was unfaithful. To boyfriends/friends/partners/lovers – but mainly, to myself. I used and abused my own body. And not even for pleasure, but for power. I measured my worth in my appearance, and valued myself through other people’s eyes. I would feel the seductive power of the male gaze, and immediatelyContinueContinue reading “Breaking Free”
Author Archives: Siobhan Kangataran
Why weight?
For many formative years of my adolescence and early adulthood, I was obsessed with my weight. Not in a fashion-conscious, aspiring to be a model way, but in a weight-controlled competitive martial art kind of way, which seemed to validate my obsession and legitimise my disordered approach to eating. The Taekwon-Do categories were based onContinueContinue reading “Why weight?”
Irishness
How do you define someone’s Irishness? Is it by their accent, their passport, their residence, their parents, their birthplace, or is it their appearance? I recently took part in a social experiment by Una-Minh Kavanagh to capture images of those of us who are Irish, but don’t look Irish, and are regularly asked “where areContinueContinue reading “Irishness”
Fear Of The Familiar
I can feel it now – it’s like a coldness around my heart. A dull sensation in the pit of my stomach. Intermittently interrupted by nervous flutters. There’s a sense of dread. Of heaviness. A resistance to moving, or doing, or being. I have never been formally diagnosed with anxiety or depression, so I neverContinueContinue reading “Fear Of The Familiar”
Learning To Accept Kindness From Others
What do you do when you finally step out of the darkness of self-loathing and depression, and the light of love of admiration is too bright? How do you look directly at the beauty of people’s words and gestures when you’ve spent years conditioning yourself to try to fix your broken self? How do youContinueContinue reading “Learning To Accept Kindness From Others”
Siobhán Kangataran 