When I was unhappy at work, I was waiting to feel better.

When I knew I wanted to leave, I was waiting to make my exit.

When I left work, I was waiting to build my business.

Now I am building my business, but I am still waiting…

What am I waiting for?

Honestly, right now, I’m waiting for money.

I hate to admit it. It feels shameful and nasty.

I created ToGetHer Further to help women at work. How dare I now want to make money from it?

I know I have money “stories” in my head – I’ve been working on this through wonderful books like You Are A Badass At Making Money, trying to let go of the conditioning controlling my financial situation.

I even organised an event to Improve Your Relationship With Money – to help myself as well as the ToGetHer Further community with our collective money mindset issues, and it did help, on so many levels. But there’s always more.

There’s always another level.

Another layer.

Of guilt.

Or shame.

Of not feeling worthy.

Of not feeling able to value myself.

So, I wait.

I wait for money.

Because one of my stories is that Money = Value.

That when I have money, I have value.

That when people give me money, they value me.

That when I am able to spend and share and enjoy my money, my life has value.

But what if I decided to stop waiting?

What if I decided to value myself, now?

To value what I’m already doing, regardless of how much money I’m making.

To know that people value me and what I’m doing, because they tell me so.

To trust that I know what I’m doing, and that I value it, and that’s enough.

That’s enough, for now.

For now. Today. The present. Not worrying about the future. Not waiting for something to happen. Simply being in the moment. Making the most of today. Letting my life truly begin.

“What are you waiting for so that your life can truly begin?”

Let’s stop waiting, and start living, today.

This piece is inspired by Esther Zimmer’s Sacred Page journalling e-course – click here to read more about it and sign up for yourself.